Letter For Corona

FOR THE PAST THREE MONTHS OR SO, I’VE FELT THROWN INTO THE WILD AND BY “WILD”, I MEAN THE ENDLESS DEPTHS OF MY MIND. AND AMIDST THIS EMOTIONAL CHAOS, I’VE COME TO REALIZE A FEW THINGS.

1) IS IT POSSIBLE FOR ME TO SIT STILL AND HAVE MY MIND VOID OF ANY THOUGHTS?

2) HOW BIG IS MY “MICRO-UNIVERSE” REALLY?

3) DO I REALLY KNOW WHAT I WANT?

LET ME EXPLAIN

Before this post-apocalyptic scenario first bloomed, most of us lead relatively balanced emotional lives. So what has quarantine changed?

Everything.

All of a sudden, most of us were faced with impossible decisions and questions.

Do I stay in the country I am? Do I leave? Is it safe to stay? Is it safe to travel? Do I stay with my family? Do I stay with my partner? My friends? Alone? Do I cook? Or order? Is my job safe? Is my business safe? Do I go out and take a stand? Do I speak out? Do I shut up and listen? Do I believe the media? Do I believe Tik Tok videos? Reddit? Is David Icke really delusional? Or is he one of the only ones that sees clearly the bigger picture? The forest beyond a tree. Is the corona virus a real threat? Is it a political ploy in light of upcoming elections? A power grab? Is it man made? Is it nature’s punishment? How many people do I know that have had or have Corona? Do aliens exist or was the Pentagon’s video purposely released without context? Does Project Stargate prove that we are much more powerful than we’ve been lead to believe? Does it prove that we can bend time and space through just our consciousness?

These are some of the questions that I have been ransacking my brain with because isolation forced me to sit with my thoughts. No more outside distractions; nothing — which brings me to my first point. Can I sit still?

Am I able to have 10–15 minutes of no thoughts at all? No visualizations?

I wasn’t. I was stressed. And this time I was stressed with no viable outlet to release. I had to stay with everything that I was thinking and feeling and I know I wasn’t the only one in this predicament. As days passed, I’d end up swallowed by my emotions. I had become the star of my magazine cover where my thoughts took center stage above everything and anything. Where my…